The Art of Self-Care

One of the biggest challenges I face in life, even as a house parent in an therapeutic boarding school, is self-care. It has been my greatest downfall for many a year and I have suffered the harshness of life in greater measure because of this unfortunate truth. 

My parents SUCKED at self-care, so naturally I wasn't going to learn it from them. My pastors growing up had no concept of it, Hollywood distorts it more than the news distort racial discrimination (Too soon?), and the first time I ever really heard any teaching on it (let alone actually seeing it done) was in college. 

Working at a job that demands the majority of your week, and the nearly all of your sanity, I have had to do some learning in the area of slef-care. After 6 months of this, however, I am still learning how to do it right! 

Here is what I've learned so far:

1) You are the ONLY one responsible for insuring your own health. You  can ask for help and recieve aid, but ultimately it comes down to you. If youur job is preventing that, tell them. They can't help you unless you  make it known. They won't help? Look for a new job. Environment affecting your ability to do this? Change it. You  will not get the care you need unless you take the intitive to get it.

2) Search out what helps you. Humanity is diverse and so is self-care. We each have our own goals, desires, triggers, energy-providers, etc and therefore we each have different needs for health and well-being. There are some basics that help everyone like getting involved in a physical activity, eating healthy, and getting sleep, but the details of each of those is where we begin to express our indiviualty. 

Furthermore, our personailties and temperments have a major say in how we send our time and what activities give us energy. For example, I need quiet time and relaxation. i need calm people and deeper, more intimate conversation from people I love and trust. A dear friend of mine often turns to dancing, talking to randomm strangers, and general goofiness his means of unwinding and re-energizing. 

Neither are wrong. Just different.

3) Set proper boundaries. This is something I really frappin' suck at!!! Saying no to people that I know will not provide me the enrionment i need for self-care, spending too much of my off time with my kids, doing hospital and airport runs on my off time, etc.  These are ways that I fail to set boundaries for myself and thus set myself up for exhaustion and a rough week. Boundaries are an important part of life and society. Without them we run the risk of being used, manipulated, and having the life sucked right out of us (speakign form experience!). While establishing boundaries isn't an easy task, it is definitely one fo the most important ones. 

So there are some of my thoughts on the ambigious, challenging, and esstial topic of self-care!

Grace and Peace,

Stephen

I Wanna Quit!

Everyone who claims Christ has had one of those days where they wake and say "Eff this! I quit!" or "Gah, I don't wanna be a Christian today." It's not something Christians like to admit, but come on; be honest. You have felt that way right? I know that I frappin' have!

In fact I had one of those days just this past week! It wasn't that I had doubts. It was that I didn't want to submit my flesh to the will of God rather than the temptations and selfish desires that are sown into the fabric of my imperfect soul. It's an unpleasant reality that we are not yet redeemed fully from our sin natures and boy does it suck!

So, you might ask how I make it through those days when I don't want to serve or seek God...

I don't have a clear answer to that.

Christianity is not fully of cookie-cutter answers or quick fixes. Would be a hellalot nicer if it were. There is no secret cheat code or magic formula for success. It's the real and the raw. It's a pain in the King Jimmy Donkey and it doesn't just go away over time.

The Bible says that righteous man falls 7 times and picks himself back up. The "RIGHTEOUS MAN" falls! What the frapp?!

God laid it right out in front of us in His Holy Writ. NO ONE IS HOLY! Even the most renowned spiritual hero of the faith frapped up! David fornicated with a woman and the murdered her respectable, honorable, and loyal husband! Moses doubted, acted the coward, and then gave in to pride! Elijah ran for his life instead of trusting, Peter denied Christ, Judas betrayed Christ, Jonah ran and then got angry at God for His mercy, etc etc etc.

"And having done everything you can to stand...stand!" --Bible, Somewhere in there...Paul said it...I think...You get the point
There may not be a quick fix, but there is a God who loves you and loves me. How did I make it through that day and continue to serve? God helped me to fight. He didn't just take away the struggle, but He did give me the grace to choose not to give in and the strength to endure all adversity and evil desire. Christ is our strong hold. He grants us victory but He still expects us to endure and to experience the struggle of reaching for holiness; to find ourselves more and more like our Creator.

So when you feel like giving up and you feel like the temptation is just too great, remember your Christ and remember your God. Remember His love for you and His ultimate desire for your healthy, growth, and success (not money and wealth...success). and having done all you can to stand...stand. 


Grace and Peace,

Stephen 

6 Month Video Update: Night Watch Reflections

I made this video over night watch and boy...was I tired! Don't make videos at 5 AM y'all!