The other day I was thinking about how my entire life I've grown up in a society that has roads with different yellow lines and white lines painted on them. Then there's traveling containing flight pathes, directions and road signs, and various rules and regulations that set up boudaries in life. And I think it is possible that this has had a significant impact on my life.
Perhaps it is mere speculation, but is it possible that having had road signs and pavement with yellow lines my entire life caused me to have a lacking ability to provide some direction for my own life? Based off of looking at my friends around me I would say it is more of a matter of nature rather than nurture, but lets get a little more personal with this. I can seehow in my life there have been proverbial paved roads in my life that define what is acceptable. They have laid out where I can go and what I can do, and me being the type that isn't much of a rebel I have not contested those boundaries till recently.
What I have been doing is enjoying the natural formation of a man made river (think about that for a few minutes...ok). I have a misguided perspective of what I've always seen as the "natural course" of life when in reality I was experiencing some thing that is formulated and planned, touched by humanity and depravity.
There comes a time when people are faced with reality; when all that has been taught to them has been put to the test and either stands or is laid to waste.
I find myself at the age of 22 lacking direction for my life. I desire to do a thousand and ten things but I struggle to do even one of them. I desire to be many different things, but am none. If I wish to survive the future I must gain vision for my life quickly and pursue that vision with all my soul...or my soul will go blind and become nothing more than a beggar. I have rejected most of the "roads" that were paved for me and now find my self needing to make my own. Where do I start?
Perhaps it is mere speculation, but is it possible that having had road signs and pavement with yellow lines my entire life caused me to have a lacking ability to provide some direction for my own life? Based off of looking at my friends around me I would say it is more of a matter of nature rather than nurture, but lets get a little more personal with this. I can seehow in my life there have been proverbial paved roads in my life that define what is acceptable. They have laid out where I can go and what I can do, and me being the type that isn't much of a rebel I have not contested those boundaries till recently.
What I have been doing is enjoying the natural formation of a man made river (think about that for a few minutes...ok). I have a misguided perspective of what I've always seen as the "natural course" of life when in reality I was experiencing some thing that is formulated and planned, touched by humanity and depravity.
There comes a time when people are faced with reality; when all that has been taught to them has been put to the test and either stands or is laid to waste.
I find myself at the age of 22 lacking direction for my life. I desire to do a thousand and ten things but I struggle to do even one of them. I desire to be many different things, but am none. If I wish to survive the future I must gain vision for my life quickly and pursue that vision with all my soul...or my soul will go blind and become nothing more than a beggar. I have rejected most of the "roads" that were paved for me and now find my self needing to make my own. Where do I start?
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