Speed Limits

One of the things that my friends get on to me the most is my religious devotion to obeying speed limits! They are always telling me to pick up the pace. Sometimes I think they are right. I drive to slow. But this isn't the case with the rest of my life. In fact, I think I am going so fast that life is passing me by and I'm not noticing all the beauty that surrounds me. At the same time I fear I may in some ways be going so slow that I'm not getting anyway. Since I am not a car, it is possible for me to go both too fast and too slow at the same time. 

Once again I am faced with the need (and desire) for change. Change has been a major theme in my life over the last 5 years, and it seems that it will be for a good deal longer. This change has to do with what I was referring to in the paragraph above. Observation of the life that speeding past me and the people that I am encountering on a daily basis is one of the things that I am working on. This is going back all the way to my very first post about "Being Present". Being a part of the world around us and our community is a significant part of being human. 

Second, I am not getting far in life as of right now. Personal study and discipline in the areas of life that I'd like improve in are significantly lacking. The study of foreign language, theology, culture, art, etc are all areas that I want to research and dive into, but have yet to truly devote time and effort into accomplishing. The time has come to change this. Waiting to start will only result in me waiting so long that death will come knocking before I accomplish what I want in life. This means breaking free of some of the limits that I've imposed upon my self...and many that have been imposed on me by others and I have foolishly followed. 

It's time to be me as I am and not me as others want me to be. I am a Christian, not because my parents want me to be, but because I have found Christian doctrine true and the purest way to live life. I am conservative in my lifestyle because of what I believe and not what others believe. It's time to break a few speed limits and write a few new ones. It is a matter of great discipline and it will be most difficult, but I have found this to be of the utmost importance. I think it's about time that I truly took the controls and began driving my own life.