Recent events in my life have caused significant shifts in person that is Stephen Green (a.k.a. me). I will refrain from details at this time since I am unsure of what is currently shareable. I do not wish to make this post about the actions that were taken, but instead about the reactions that have been developed.
I feel more like myself than I ever have before. This feeling is derived from cognate thought and realizations and not just the leadings of my gut. No, I have seen true, identifiable changes in my actions and behavior that lead to say "The dead in me is coming alive; the sleeping is awakening." In the midst of the storm, I have found that I am able to stand strong. Where I thought myself weak, I have found that weight of the world has proven otherwise. The desert has taught me to drink water, and the raging sea has taught me I can sail. Like Frodo learning he can resist the power of the Ring, it is the darkness coming into my life that has revealed my strength. I know that this strength is what God has implanted deep with my since birth, but He has taken me on a journey in which much of my being has been repressed and oppressed by my environment, but now He is forcing that which has been repressed to come out of hiding and stand tall in the light.
God has given me this strength, but the strength is indeed mine. What I have is what was given to me and I must own it. In the swirling torrent of thoughts and emotions that have invaded my space, I seek to know God and to know others and be known by both; to find peace and understanding as I fight off the "demons" that seek to destroy me. Christ is redeeming me from my sin as well as from the sins of others. He is waking me up.
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