The Great Trifectoid

This summer has been one of great challenges, significant growth, intimate rebuke, & total exposure/purging for my life. Now, for those who are extremely close to me, everything I just said makes a lot of sense. To everyone else...well I'm sure I've caught your attention and gotten your mind to thinking. The purpose of this post is neither to vent nor "spill my guts", but instead to simply reflect (haha) and perhaps lead others to an awareness of what is happening in their own lives.

I named this post "The Great Trifectoid" for a specific reason. Over the last three months I have been noticed the specific areas of my life that were in desperate need of attention and repair. They are follows:

• Psychological
• Emotional
• Spiritual

These three ares are deeply and intimately connected to one another. If one suffers, generally they all suffer. Other areas of life are affected by the unhealthiness of the Great Three. One's vocational life, social life, physical stature, etc. are all subject to influence of the Great Three. This is something that I'm seeing play out in my life as I face a great deal of stress and discomfort as I move into a new stage of my life as a post-college adult. 

I has a tremendous desire to be a person who shows great love and compassion to those in need and to step into the lives of others, as God would direct me, to be able to bring life and understanding to others. To be a tool of growth and healing for others, and example of someone who lives "in the World but not of it." I have great desires and dreams of things to do in this world and to be a creator of community and safety for Christians and those seeking Christ in my city and throughout the world. 

It has been found to be in God's good and holy will, however, that I enter a time of purging and healing before getting to do what I desire. These three areas are essential to being able to do what I want, and I have neglected them for far too long, and even ignored or denied my problems altogether. To ignore the past, to neglect oneself, to not have safe and biblical boundaries for one's life can lead to sickness within the pyscho-emo-spiritual self. I'm am extremely grateful that God has granted me awareness and the ability to look introspectively to see Him working and recognize things in my life decades sooner than most will ever do. I'm willing to wait to do all the things I desire to do for the sake of doing them right. 

I once told a friend of mine that I always rise to the occasion when I'm needed and he looked at me and said "Yes, and right now...you need you." So I'm finding it extremely urgent in my life to focus on my own healing, for as another friend said "How can you step in to heal others if you can't even take the time to heal yourself first" and so in neglecting myself I am only making myself inadequate to do the work needed to help others. To focus on one's own healing and needs is not being selfish, it is necessary. Too many pastors and leaders of the Church fall into burnout and deep suffering because they forsook themselves in the name "selflessness" and that just is not biblical at all. So for now my number one focus is on ME. ME and God. Because it means that later I will be effective and efficient in helping OTHERS...to go in peace to love and serve the Lord.

Peace be upon you all.